sometimes i hate myself for being 'emotionless'.

sometimes i hate that i cant be truthful about everything i feel.

sometimes i hate the people around me.

sometimes i just hate being me.

i miss you.

Received my clarisonic plus afew days ago. I really hope it's as hype up as what's being reviewed on youtube. I really did watch a huge ass number of reviews on youtube. Because I didn't want to be throwing 260 bucks down the drain on something that does not work. =X

So far I have used it for 2 days and it really does clean my skin. After using it, I can feel that my face has lesser dry spots and it has become more smooth. But I have yet to see it having any effects on my pores or my blackheads. We shall see again in a month's time, if it will really close up my pores.

i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany. i wanna go germany.


BUT

i dont think that's possible.

It's obvious that I suck at updating blogs. >.<

But on a second note, its already 2011!

I'm looking forward to a fresh start and more happy memories!

I think the pressure from the constant onslaught of assignments is causing everyone to be on edge.

Everyone should just CHILL!!!!

girls are really easy to satisfy. u dont have to buy them expensive things or bring them to eat at expensive places. i think overall its the actions that girls look for; little surprises and sweet words. it's sometimes hard to comprehend why some guys just dont get it.

personally, i dont need a guy to always buy me expensive stuff. all these are just short term happiness. i may be happy for a fleeting moment but an object is an object afterall. it wont give me warmth or comfort me when i'm unhappy. what i need is someone who will make me happy when im down and most importantly make me feel like i'm someone special. at the end of the day, it's the thought that counts.

the work load in school is killing me. I wonder how some people can cope with it and even start on their essays so early. they must be crazy! plus i think that all this stress is making me go mad. been feeling really emotional. so unlike me. hope this bloody phrase will be gone soon. watching eat, pray, love is really no help too. it really makes me think about both my future and present life. am i even choosing the correct path to embark on? what if i fail? what if all this is just a waste of time? questions, questions & more questions.

I guess life is full of questions that will go unanswered. i just hope that whatever i choose to do will not backfire on me.

All I can say is I'm truly blessed.

On a side note, the timetables are finally out. And yays! I only have one 8.30am lesson on Monday. Other than that, most of my lessons start from 11.30am and ends by 4.30pm.

=)

Practicum

I've learnt alot throughout these 5 weeks but I'm still glad its finally over!! YAY!

Haven't been able to properly sit down and post something because I'm currently swarmed with lesson plans and tuition.

At this moment, I'm questioning my choices in life. I enjoy spending time with children but managing them is another thing all together. I just wish that they are not so hyper all the time. It's really weird that I can feel so differently in different scenarios. Sitting at the back of class, I can talk to the students and find that they are really nice. But when I'm standing in front, I can get so frustrated that they all start to look like little monsters.

I hate having to keep screaming and nagging at people for them to listen =/

It's all coming to an end in 1 week, I can do it!!! =)

One week is finally over and I've yet to write my reflection. I'm leaving it for the weekends to complete because I'm really SUPER exhausted and tired and the thought of churning out an essay resembling a fragment of a reflection is simply put - irking the life out of me.

I can't imagine that they would expect such fantastic reflections from us, even though we only sat at the back of a tiny classroom listening to boring lessons. To make matters worse, I spent most of my week stoning in the so called 'materials resource room'.

Its not that I hate this job, and of course there are its peaks.

YES the kids are cute. YES the teachers may be friendly. But that's only the surface of things. After 1 week, I can safely say that kids nowadays are so much different from kids back in the 1990s. Although they may be so much smarter, with that it also comes with the loss of respect towards their elders and their fellow classmates. I guess its the fault of our society, parents pampering their offsprings so much that these kids grow up to be so spoilt.

Anyways enough dwelling on the future of our country. My only hope for now is that I won't screw up the remaining 4 weeks. -_- especially since I need to start teaching from the third week onwards. argh.

According to you

Are we everything you ever wanted?

anyways on a sidenote, I've gotten myself a tumblr account: http://itsmichhhh.tumblr.com/
I'm treating it like my twitter account, just for looking at other people's updates and maybe reblogging interesting and funny pictures. basically its for me to source for nice quotes to keep.

Who loves a good emo song? I know I do!

When I heard this song on the radio while driving, I immediately fell in love with it =)
It led me to thinking about my existence on earth. So minuscule and tiny. Having no impact whether I live or die. This is not the life I want to live.

YES! There must be something more to life. ESPECIALLY MINE!

I blame the movie industry for inculcating in us girls the constant need for romance. All these lovey dovey movies always show how easily it is for the guy to say the right things and do the right stuff. BUT in reality this is never the truth. AND because we always see it in the movies, we will start longing for our own boyfriends to produce the same results.

In movies: guys will give in to a girls every whim.
In reality: no such thing!

In movies: guys always saying what a girl wants to hear the most.
In reality: no such thing!

In movies: the whole damsel in distress and knight in shining armor thing
In reality: no such thing!

SO many examples, I guess what I'm trying to express is that overall don't expect what you see in the movies to apply to your own relationship because life is never so simple. We don't just fall in love and expect to live off that because no matter how romantic or how great your love may be, it can never fill an empty stomach.

I absolutely have nothing to do since ZK left for China, so I'm here to update about May's activities.
So many pictures to upload! I guess leaving things for later will just make it pile up and become a chore. hahas! I should never do that ever again. =X

no mood to blog since the holiday =X
think I need to get into the hang of it again.
just wrote some half-ass entries but won't be publishing it yet because I haven't edited it yet.
tsk tsk!!!

BACK from Genting!!!! loved the company, casino and food =)
I'll post up the genting pictures after i get back my camera from zk.

Wee! I can't wait to go genting again =X

GENTING!

The Genting trip was a blast! And although we spent 4 days 3 nights over there, after everything I still feel that it was TOO short a trip! I guess it was the company which made it so fun and enjoyable =) I hope the trip for August would come true! hee~ Anyways everyone please save for our graduation trip to USA hor! At the rate at how I'm spending, I'm worried I won't have enough money by then. =X

Day 1

We started the trip the night before - in huilin's house playing MJ! =)

Shiokness! My hand feels itchy seeing these pics hahas

Our luggage

After MJ-ing, we had Mac Ds for breakfast

On the way to await for the bus

Waiting for our bus

On the bus already!

A special surprise for Ngiap =)

What's inside?

His birthday present -- the genting trip fully paid by us. Shiok!

Guess who?

The bus was super comfortable with plenty of space infront for our feet and loads of space for us to lie down even providing our own TV to watch movies and games =)

LANDED!

Our hotel =)

Our ROOM!

=)

hahahahahaa! this picture makes me laugh =X and P.S. that's not my bed LOL!

sushi king. where we ate our dinner (i think)

I dunno why hl seems to be staring at ngiap hahas

Jumping shot! 1st and more to come

We stayed in adjourned rooms and we left the doors open throughout the whole trip.

nice pic!

Outside the casino. We went there EVERYDAY. gamblers lols!

Day 2

Day 2 was an eventful day. we went several places to hang out. first of all, we went to kbox for their klunch.

the missing person in action joined us for kbox. hahas

all eating happily

group shot!

LOL! i think throughout the trip i was quite mad =X i don't know why i lifted my leg up LOL! only madness can explain it.

next stop: BOWLING!

LOL!!!! these two pics are super funny =)

LOL!!!!! funny rite?

LOL!!! we played couples vs non couples and I bet you can see from this pic who won =X It was quite unfair because it was 4 vs 3 BUT I was their handicap so overall, I guess it evened out.

I dunno what's zk doing LOL

I think they were 'fighting' but instead look like dancing LOL

so happy! must be winning

and he must be losing =X

after bowling we went to the arcade! wc and I decided to try out the para para machine because obviously no one was around to see =X

whyyy so serioussssss?

LOL!!! what are the guys up to man!

after eating in mushroom restaurant. the food there was good and affordable XD the hotels provides free bus services to this restaurant.

all copying louis's jumping style

Day 3

Didn't take much pictures on the day 3 because zk and I was tired of carrying the dslr all over the place LOL! and we spend most of the day inside the casino thus not much pics. But we did went to eat ice-cream together and had a great time chatting and playing games with one another during dinner. I think I was the dumbest one there because alot of the time, I don't understand the riddles which the others were saying. LOL!!!

we ate in mary brown but it wasn't really filling =( disappointing.

doesn't HL look like the chipmunk on the cup? hahas!

Day 4

group shot together with the geog peeps! we met them several times throughout the trip at the mushroom restaurant and also the casino! =)

couple shirts! so cute =)

going back home liaoooooo~

in the lousy bus. this bus was totally different from the bus we took to genting. guess we were lucky to get the better bus for free =X anyways there was this lady who was our so call 'tour guide', she was super irritating especially her voice. and also our bus was full of old ppl who were super kiasu and were always rushing to the front to go off first =/

=)